ok so… wow the indictment
someone posted a summary of the indictment a few weeks ago, and it was pretty spot on.
i have to be very careful what i say, as i do not have a lawyer myself, so i’ll stick to basics. i am looking at this indictment the same way everyone else is.. so really, i’m probably thinking what you are.
the thing that weirds me out, from my point of view… is… ok let me back up.
when i read that summary, i thought to myself… is this really all about the video? the tweets? seriously?? and that’s still what i am thinking.
i spent 24/7 with barrett for several months. i know everything he did, almost everything he thought, and everything he said.
i have access to his email. i am not changing anything but i am reading, and NOTHING gives any indication that he is guilty of what he’s charged with.
the tweets, etc, are all random and out of context. i just don’t get it.
i have not heard from barrett since he was moved, so again, i have no further insight than i did when this all started.
all i know, is that in the week or so leading up to the raid, he fixated on one particular issue, it wasn’t a long term obsession, and to my knowledge he had no serious intentions let alone violent ones.
i can only tell the truth. here is the truth about the raid. now that the indictment is out i feel i can share this:
on the raid
I: i could not see and did not know this was real:
i was sitting at the laptop, chatting with people on tinychat, when b got up and walked toward the door/kitchen area. i do not remember why, i do not remember hearing a knock. i heard shouting, and i thought it was his friend, a, who sometimes pretends to be an fbi agent or zeta at the door as a joke referring to b’s previous raid/happenings.
i heard was sounded like two people wrestling or struggling in the hallway, i thought to myself that a. was really convincing this time, and i wondered why the talking stopped.
II: i can see and know this is real
i saw barrett and an agent appear from behind the wall, around the corner. the agent was holding barrett from behind, and he seemed to be struggling, my attention was then diverted to a second agent coming around the corner who yelled something at me, i remember it as being “this is a raid” but i cannot be positive that was what he yelled. it was at this time i slammed the laptop shut.
a female agent came next and held out her arms and put her hands on my arms, telling me she was going to take me out into the hall. i said to her “i’m just his girlfriend” and she said “i know”. barrett was lying on his stomach on the ground, and i had to step over him to reach the door.
by this time several more agents entered the apartment
i do not know exactly when, but an agent told him he had the right to remain silent and should use it.
i rolled my eyes and an agent noticed, and inquired about it, i said sometimes barrett gets too passionate about things, i wish he wouldn’t.
the female agent talked to me for approx 30 minutes in the hallway. she asked why barrett would say what he said, at this point i did not know the contents for the third video. i answered her that he had fixated on agent s, and that i wished he would not do that. she asked why he didn’t contact RS, i said he did not know how. she said, he never called.
after i brought up barrett’s mother and his reasoning for what i thought was talking about RS, she asked where he would get the idea that RS was after his mother.
i said i think someone told him at the previous raid (this is not the case, but at the time i did not know).
we talked about a variety of non related topics like the weather, she was very hot in her bulletproof vest. she took down my name, birthdate and twitter handle. i thanked her for being nice to me.
during this time two male agents also talked to me briefly. the female agent asked me about my relationship with barrett and remarked that “sometimes we women think we can change [a man]”
she asked me how i met barrett, and i told her i emailed him about some silly facebook gossip about him, and that we talked from there. i said i didn’t know him before but had known of him. she asked me about his activities and i mentioned that he had talked to topiary the previous day.
i told her he gets fixated on things, like bloggers he doesn’t agree with. she asked for names, and i mentioned one.
a male agent asked me if i knew barrett was still doing heroin. i looked at him confused and said, it’s suboxone.
one of the male agents asked if i had a ride home, or someplace to go. i said “i live here, this is my home”
i said i did not think it was my place to ask detailed questions about barrett’s legal issues, and one of the male officers said, “but you live together.” implying that i should be asking those questions.
barrett came out and said, “sweetheart, call my lawyer, and use my debit card for bail, if they give me bail” and he was escorted out.
one of the agents said “so you were on tinychat, are you often on tinychat?” i said yeah, lately a lot. he said “are there any other cameras in the apartment?” i said no. and he said “you would hope you’d know if there were.”
the female agent told me we could go back in, but then she told me, you can wait out here, they are taking pictures, and we agents have a joke about how everyone leaves the room because they don’t want to be in photos.
after photos were taken i went back into the apartment where the agents were searching the apartment. i sat down in the computer chair.
i asked if i could use the female agents phone to call my mom, but her phone did not make blocked number calls so she borrowed a phone from one of the male agents. i tried to call but could not get through due to the blocked number. i said it’s ok i will just get a cheap phone later.
one of the agents told me barrett’s mom was outside, i stood up and then decided to just see her after the search, and an agent said, barrett put you in charge of the apartment i hope you wont leave while we are still here.
one of the agents handed me the warrant and the item list of things taken from the apartment, and i signed it.
the agents left. barrett’s mom came in, and i called my mom from her phone.
i acquired a phone within a few hours and began to get information out via twitter.
so that’s it. i have hopes that this will get better. again i have to be very careful what i say, but literally no one has asked me about what happened. so again, this is all from my pov.
i guess some people are spreading rumors that im some kind of informant. which makes loads of sense because one thing informants do is constantly tweet and facebook and tumbl about how much they miss their jailed boyfriend. clearly thats exactly how sabu acts to this day. to those ppl i say:
night night xox